So last night I had a huge breakdown - but a good breakdown. I think sometimes I just get overwhelmed emotionally and, on very rare occasions, it just brings me to my knees and makes me praise God. Not whine, not complain, not ask for things I want, but just legit praising and worshiping of Him. I pray that He may be pleased with my miniscule offering, all that I have to give Him; just a small taste of my thanks and gratefulness.
Yes, I am so attractive.
I read through a few Psalms, just randomly opening my Bible and hoping to find something that may express my praise in some way. I eventually got to Psalm 23, a very familiar passage - ya know, "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want..." etc., etc. But I really read it, each phrase individually, and for the first time, I think I really comprehended what it said.
I'll spare you my findings, but one thing that really hit me was in verse 3: "he restores my soul." And that's not a past tense statement. It's present tense. And for those of you who slept through English class, that means that it's presently occurring - it's still happening! (Well... maybe that's not technically what the present tense means, but I think it's what this verse means!) In the hard times, the times of sorrow, when you can't take one more thing, He completely restores you and recharges your spiritual battery. He gives a peace that no one else can give.
One last gooshy thing: God never changes. Change has been something I have always had a very hard time dealing with. And especially recently, things have been... a little overwhelming. I haven't been adjusting well to all the changes in my life, and every day has been breaking me down more and more. But I've truly discovered the peace in an unchanging God. He can't change. It is impossible for Him to change! And in a world and life that is always flipping something another way, it is extremely comforting to know God will never change! Friends can move away, family members will leave this life, children grow up, but God will always be there, always the same, always God.
On a much lighter note...
MY BESTEST FRIEND CAME HOME!!!!!
Rachel, the girl who has been living in Germany for 4 months, FINALLY came home for Christmas!! Best Christmas present ever. And as depressing as it is knowing she'll be going back in a few weeks, I've found such amazing comfort in our unchanging God, who won't ever leave me and can give me to strength to handle anything.
Model poses :P
Oh yea, just FYI, these pictures are from tonight's youth group, uh... gathering. We had an interesting time... yea.
We played a very dangerous game of Spoons. Three people were bleeding in the end... I was one of them.
The lovely lady returned home :)
And I don't care how disgusting I look in this picture. I only care that we have finally been reunited ♥
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