I've got the Power

  Ah, Wednesdays!
  I think Wednesdays are such lovely days!
  It's splat in the middle of the week and you either realize that half the week is gone, or you realize only half a week has gone by.
  I like Wednesdays.
  Mostly because of CLEAR (youth group)
  Tonight was Caregroup, which I guess is a bit more of a discussion time between everyone.
  That's what I need - a good discussion.
  I'm a pretty boring and self-centered person to talk to on a normal basis (I think being extremely boring leads to me having nothing to talk about but myself. I try to not talk about myself, but the conversation always turns back to me. Which is the reason I usually don't talk), but get we talking about something I like or something I know a lot about, I can be quite nice to talk to. But it seems like whenever I want to really talk to someone about something good, they don't usually want to talk. Which is understandable, since I'm a very unenjoyable person to talk to. But this is besides the point and now I lost my train of thought.
  But I seriously love being able to talk to people about stuff. I just rarely do. I have one friend that I'm probably most open to about stuff, and she still doesn't know half the things there are to know about me. Hmm...
  Anyway, besides CLEAR, today was a bit depressing. It's probably the last time I'll be going to CLEAR until... August. And church I'll only be able to get to once next month, and that's it until August. So I'll pretty much see no friends all summer (except those on my softball team). So that is a rather depressing thought. I'll have to find a lot of books to keep me company :] Also I didn't get to go swimming in the pool. That was depressing as I'll probably have zero chance to swim this summer.
  This might be a very crappy and short summer.
  That's a bit depressing.
  But I guess I shouldn't be so depressed. There's more to life then hanging out with friends and going swimming. It may give me some time to really study God's Word and get closer to Him.
  There's something that's been on my mind tonight. Modesty. I know I'm doing a blog on it and all, but sometimes I need to get my nose out of the book and look at the world.
  I'm a bit timid to touch on this because I feel very strongly about it, and yet, I feel like a hypocrite because I know my heart and body isn't always in the right place when I dress. It's hard to not dress desirably.
  I was reading my new SUSIE magazine today (yea, I already got the July issue and it's only June 8. Whoa.), and in one article a girl was asking how to stay modest and still look in style, something we're always asking. The writer replied by giving some different trends, and then listing some things that are immodest.

• Bra straps showing
• Cleavage showing
• Wearing skintight clothing
• Wearing sexy clothing

  WHOA. I stopped there. I mean, it's obvious we shouldn't be trying to sexually stimulate guys.
  But then that's the definition of sexy.
"Sexually stimulating"
  I never thought of it like that. I mean, maybe I'm just very stupid, but hearing somebody say not to wear sexy clothing just hit me. Sometimes, I do dress modestly, nothing showing that shouldn't be showing, jeans aren't too tight or anything.
  But somehow, my mentality is still to look hot. To look sexy. I'm still sinning, even if my body is covered.
  Sometimes I'm just trying to look nice or cute, but other times, I'm trying to get that attention. I want to turn guys' heads, make them take a double take.
  But that's not right. I should be dressing to please God, not men. I feel like Captain Obvious pointing this out, but having it put so clearly, it just hit me.
  Sexy is bad.
  Unless you're with your husband.
  So maybe I'm the only one with this problem, maybe everyone has this problem, maybe there's a few of you, or a lot of you with the same problem. But I encourage you to examine your hearts. It's so easy to think we're not sinning if we're not obviously or physically doing something wrong. But sometimes the sin never leaves our hearts. It gets stuck in there. Maybe we're able to push it down and say we have no sin, but it's really peeking it's head through your mind, getting you to do things you don't even realize you're doing.
  If you are struggling this, pray! Ask God to clean your heart and give you a desire to be pure and pleasing to Him. If you aren't struggling with this, then praise God that you aren't and pray for other girls around the country that are struggling with this. Ask God to help conquer their sin.
  Oh, and just because I love her so much, here's a Carly quote:
" If Chuck Norris had a youth group, it'd be CLEAR."
Cheers ♥
P.S. If you want more on modesty and what God and guys have to say about it, read my other blog, HIS blog, which is my study on Dannah Gresh's "Secret Keeper" book and devos.