Beloved

   Don't you just love those days when the sun is shining down on this little planet; the birds are singing beautiful melodies with unknown lyrics; the sky is so blue, you wonder how anyone could ever deny God's existence?

Today was one of those days.

   I've been thinking recently. That's generally not a good thing, but what can one do?

Romance has been on my mind. It's a strange thing - that it has been on my mind, and also the idea itself.

I've been reading too much romantic literature (Jane Eyre♥)

I sometimes think Pride & Prejudice is a bit over-rated. Nobody gives dear Jane a chance when compared to Miss Elizabeth.

I find Jane's story much more interesting - full of mystery. She's such a lonely soul, trying to convince herself the love she has cannot be.

Forbidden love.

Romantic, right?

Sometimes I feel like dear Jane. So inferior to other more beautiful, intelligent, charming ladies.

I get frustrated with myself. I want to not worry about my relationship status; whether I get married or not; if I'll be single for the rest of my life.

I want to be completely dedicated to serving God, first and foremost. I want Him to matter, not some guy's opinion of me.

But I don't always feel that way. I want a guy to smile at me, tell me I'm beautiful, treat me like a precious treasure.

But I already have Someone who does all those things.

Sometimes I forget all that He does for me.

Maybe one day God will send me my own Mr. Rochester (or Mr. Darby, if you must ;).

But until then, I want to be completely satisfied with God. I want Him to reign supreme. I want to trust in His perfect will for my life, whether that involves a husband or not.

Sometimes I think about romance, getting married, being in love.

But I always remember my true Love.

Cheers♥